"My unique practice allows sexual trauma survivors to receive the healing they desperately need in a way that works for them"
My entire entrepreneurial path has been non-traditional and definitely unpredictable. That used to cause me a lot of stress and anxiety as I tried to find where I fit as an entrepreneur and a healer, but I’ve finally found my way by accepting my path to break from tradition.
I traveled to Bali to be initiated into and trained in Reiki energy healing. It was one of the best times of my life in terms of spiritual and personal growth; traveling to such a beautiful, spiritual place like Bali to be initiated into an incredible healing modality was beyond my wildest plans, but my soul couldn’t help but be pulled to do it.
During my training, I was given the choice between practicing the traditional hands-on Reiki healing or staying in the energy field and not touching the physical body during my sessions. I knew little about Reiki before my training to be honest, and I didn’t know the gravity of my decision to stay in the energy field and not touch the physical body during a session. I chose that option because my whole life, I hated being touched by people I wasn’t comfortable with. As I got older, that discomfort with being touched grew and grew until I had to examine why I felt that way.
My own healing path has been long and winding, with lots of untangling and breakthroughs. One of these aha moments was recognizing why I chose to break with Reiki tradition and practice hands off healing, years after my training. My family has been through a lot of sexual trauma, which has been passed down through generations in our DNA and our behaviors. My whole life has been shaped by this trauma, despite me not being a victim myself. My dislike of being touched comes directly from my family’s sexual trauma - and it’s that trauma that guided me to become non-traditional and pave my own way of healing. As an entrepreneur, I struggled to find my ideal client. I went from wanting to help stressed out working women find balance, to helping people break their self-loathing, to working with depression and anxiety. Still, I did not feel like I had found my purpose.
By working through my own emotional trauma and hang ups, I found that nothing is a coincidence. I am breaking with tradition, something many Reiki practitioners may disagree with, so I can pave a new way of healing for sexual trauma survivors! I’ve finally found my purpose. Hands-on Reiki is a wonderful, life changing tool, but I knew that I personally could never achieve the level of relaxation the body requires to activate my self-healing abilities in a traditional session. I knew that if someone’s hands were on my body, even in a non-sexual way, I would never be able to let go and heal. It’s just not possible for me. In that moment of being asked which way I wanted to learn, I knew I could never ask my future clients to be comfortable receiving hands-on healing, because I’m not comfortable with it myself. So I chose to go my own way, and learn non-traditionally.
Since that moment, I’ve been practicing Reiki my way and have received no complaints about the way I deliver my healing. I channel light energy just the same, I unblock chakras just the same, I change lives just the same. The only difference is I’ve become a healing beacon for sexual trauma survivors without even trying. It was only after survivor after survivor sought me out that I realized that my purpose was right in front of me all these years. I am meant to offer a new way of healing to these survivors, who have been left with the choice to either be uncomfortable and allow someone to touch them or stay away from Reiki altogether. My unique practice now allows those survivors to receive the healing they desperately need in a way that works for them.
I am filled with pride and gratitude as I realize that I am leading the way to healing for these survivors, for people with anxiety, and for people like me who just don’t like being touched. I struggled for a long time to find my place, because I didn’t seem to fit in any particular group of healers, and now I see it’s because I’m meant to break with tradition and pave the way myself. So some traditional Reiki practitioners may still disagree with my methods, but my beautiful, brave clients do not, and that’s enough for me.
If you are a sexual trauma survivor, drop me a message and let’s talk. I am here on this planet to transform sexual and emotional trauma into empowerment and strength, so you do not have to travel this world alone. Together, we will change society little by little, one survivor at a time. We don't need to change ourselves to fit tradition anymore, now, we're changing tradition to fit us.