My trauma made me believe I was a useless, good for nothing, boring person who had to bribe people to stay in my life. I wanted balance so bad, but my trauma told me I didn’t deserve it.
2019 is the Year of Balance, and that is music to my ears! 2018 was a year of growth and progress, now we have the opportunity to put the wisdom we've gained into action. Take some time to reflect on the past year, what did you learn? What did you let go of? What did you discover about yourself? Then take some time to reflect on the coming year, who do you want to be? What changes do you need to make to improve yourself or love yourself more? What still needs to be healed? We're all works in progress, so pat yourself on the back for all the challenges you've overcome and prepare yourself to dive into the upcoming year with enthusiasm and balance.
If you have been really tuning into yourself and healing your traumas and wounds, you’ll probably be feeling the difference in energy already this year. The old ways of living are no longer going to fit your life. More self-awareness, less emotional attachment to problems, more soulful connections and less autopilot habits. Trying to force your old way of living into your present life will make you feel like you’re moving through molasses, you’ll be fighting against the current. It’s time to take back your energy from all the people you help, all the fires you put out, all the projects you’re involved in, all the drama you get dragged into. This is the time for you to actively choose what and who gets your energy, rather than allowing yourself to be drained by vampires and obligations all day every day. You are being called to TAKE CONTROL. Stop letting your energy go to helping others when you’re falling apart at the seams. Stop letting your energy go to your employer’s goals while yours stay forgotten in the background. Stop letting your emotions keep you on a roller coaster every time a challenge presents itself. Take a good look at what needs to change in your life. Now is the time to take control - face your traumas, heal your past, reclaim your essence.
Balance has always been dear to my heart but a challenge for me to implement into my own life. Things are different now - I've processed my deepest traumas, looked my fears in the eyes and kept going anyway, and am finally ready to expand myself as far as I can reach. Before I faced my assault, I could not keep balanced to save my life. It was absolutely impossible because my trauma was controlling me. My trauma made me believe I was a useless, good for nothing, boring person who had to bribe people to stay in my life. I always overextended myself financially, emotionally, physically. I gave everything I had to anyone who needed it and to many people who didn’t deserve it. I sacrificed my physical health to save others from their traumas, I drained myself emotionally because I thought boundaries were selfish. My body was shutting down physically from all the bad food I ate to quiet the pain, from not exercising because I always felt so sluggish, and from my lack of stress relief. I wanted balance so bad, but my trauma told me I didn’t deserve it.
It seems so unconnected, facing my sexual trauma and finally finding balance. Healing my trauma helped me appreciate my body again, helped me see that boundaries are SOO necessary in my profession, and to finally see my inherent value as a human being, so I didn’t feel the need to bribe people to love me anymore. Facing and processing my sexual assault allowed me to finally breathe again and reset myself. I can feel joy, I can laugh without a hint of sadness now, I can allow people to give back to me, and I am so confident in my future now.
I want the same feeling for you. I know how scary it can be to speak about your darkest experiences or terrible memories, but I also know that until you do so, your pain will be calling all the shots. Take a chance on yourself and MAKE MASSIVE CHANGES! Cut out that toxic friend, stop eating foods that make you feel sluggish, get that education, start that business, whatever your soul is telling you to do, finally listen! Most importantly, get some support. I couldn't heal my traumas on my own, no matter how hard I tried. You need someone to guide you through it, whether it's me or another professional. Don't go it alone.
When you're ready to Be the Balance you need in your life, I'll be here for you. If you want more information on working with me, book a free call here. In this call you can ask me any questions you have, share what your challenges are, and determine if I'm a good fit for you. 2019 is here and I don't know about you but I'm ready for all the adventure coming our way! Happy New Year!